Midweek Blues?

Evening. Lots happened since I last posted on here. Really enjoyed weekend when my best man came over to stay. Ended up pigging out on curry friday night, followed by pool and drinkies the night after. Introduced to nine ball which was tres cool.

No real development with regards to Relate which concerns me as I don't want it to all blow up again before anything happens. It's totally my fault as I have been rescheduling the reminder on my phone for the last two weeks. Gotta pull my finger out or else it will all turn to shite!

Mentioned to wifey that I have been a bit down at times recently. Smoking not a problem for me but having set out to get fit again only to discover that running every other morning was causing me really bad pains in my knees, it was getting frustrating to say the least. Good news is that I went to the docs about it today and he seems to think that whilst it is likely to be ligaments, taking it easy initially should sort it out. I guess it's just my body reacting to six years of no exercise to regular runs... What the fuck is going on!

Finding it hard to get into study for CCNA which I know will require me to be 100% committed to our else I won't get anywhere with it the exams! I realise that it will be by far the most difficult I have done but also the most rewarding personally and respected in the IT industry. Would like to set target for first part ICND1 for end of March at latest but we will have to see.

So much else going on with trying to get house sorted and sold in an attempt to hang onto 4 jones close. Still not overjoyed with staring at a tower block every time I leave the house but we simply won't find another place with 4 bedrooms for that sort of money. Hopefully we can crack on now and get the final bits sorted on this one!

Sister just got married to her man in Yemen. Mum and Dad were there to witness . Hope it went well for her. Strange relationship we have now..not sure how to describe it. I know we still have the love but something just doesn't feel quite right when we see or speak to each other. One to think about some more me thinks.

Tired now so night night. Wife is waiting for me to come up so BFN.

End of first day post.

How do.... Just about to hit the sack as well and truly knackered due to only getting 3 hours sleep last night. Missed my morning run as a result which pissed me off no end but not as much as hearing that the people coming to look at the house had cancelled. The apparent viewing was entirely responsible for the previous night's sleep depravity as my wife and I spent it getting the house in order. Feck.....arse.....bollocks.!!?.Must get up for the run tomorrow morning then as I want to keep it going to prove to anyone interested that I can find the discipline within me to achieve some sort of fitness level and get myself back down the gym. Work should be fairly easy going......well it's a Friday after all and our floor at the office is deserted in the afternoon! Will give me a chance to do some more much needed study. Hope my CCNA books arrive from the states soon as dying to crack on with it all. Apologies at this point if this is all a bit un structured but just getting it down as it comes to me. No smoking thing is going well from my point of view. No real "ooooh I could really fancy a fag!" feelings as of yet which is encouraging. I'm sure I can do it properly this time, instead of the rather poor 3 months last year. Looking forward to weekend as my best man is staying over and we will have a night out on Saturday without my 2 year old son. What fun can we have? My wife and I are looking to sort out our relationship and so I approached Relate to get the much needed counselling together. I was surprised to discover that the initial consultation is £35 followed by £45 (Suggested) per session thereafter! Eek!... Money should be no object in the circumstances but we will still have to seriously consider if it affordable. Hopefully we can get some at a reduced rate, as am keen to start asap. Anyways, off to land of nod so will say ta ta for now..

It's my first time!

Erm..... hello. Well here we are then, I finally managed to get round to creating this after Xmas and New Year passed so quickly. I suppose I should start by confirming my reasons for doing this as I need to find an outlet for all those thoughts and feelings which I obviously find so hard to relay otherwise. The person who suffers most as a result of this is my loving wife. I will use this as an oppurtunity to express myself and to allow her to read about what's going on in my head! Well its a start anyway. Gotta dash now as lunch needs attending to. BFN.